Recovery

Today is better than Monday or Tuesday. I am a little sore, but I am learning that my body doesn't heal as quickly as I would like. I just need time and rest, especially now that I am carrying such a large load. I went to work yesterday, but only made it 2/3 of the way through. Lucky for me, I have some wonderful people at work who covered my classes for me. I called in sick today and plan on resting. My sister and nephew are coming over today and I know that it will help speed my healing. I love that kid.

We went to the doctor yesterday. It was a strange visit. I almost felt like the doctor didn't believe I had a kidney infection, but thought it was just back pain from the pregnancy. I may not have a medical degree, but I do know my own body. Plus, I was probably over sensitive. My blood pressure was taken twice and they had to take a little blood to test my sugars (which were fine). I think I'm just to the point where I am ready for this to be over. J won't be able to be at the next appointment, but I'm sure it will be just as boring as the previous ones. He will only miss two appointments out of a billion, which means he is there more than lots of other husbands. I know he feels guilty, but he's been such a great support and I know when Emma gets here, he will be even more of a help.

This week, I've been trying to have an attitude of gratitude in everything I do. It makes it easier to get through the times that make me question life itself. Sometimes my lessons aren't positive, but knowing that my life could be so much worse is helpful. I am going to be a mother. A mom. Lately, I've been able to envision myself as a mom, and Jonathan as a dad. I can't wait to see our Emma and to do things as a 3... I mean, as a 4 obviously I can't forget Kobe. I'm so elated to be a more complete family once Emma comes.

I'm so grateful for my life, my family, my friends, and for my Emma Lou <3