This past week as been so awesome and last night was amazing! I love college football and seeing them in person is the greatest experience.
I woke up this morning, hurting like no other. I had jet lag, a sleep hangover, and there was no food in my house. I had received a message the day before to call the nurse at my doctor's office to go over my test results. She called again this morning, and I called back. I failed. I am a big, fat failure. My blood sugar was 136. I almost started to cry, but I had to make my appointment for the 3 hour test for Friday so that I didn't have to take time off of work to do it. It's the second time in my pregnancy that I didn't feel great about myself. However, I decided that crying and stressing about it wasn't going to do me any good. I made the appointment and decided to worry about it after the tests was complete.
I went grocery shopping with my sister afterwards and made sure to load up on fruits, veggies, and whole grains to help 'detox' from the holidays.
During our time in Minnesota, Emma's aunt Elizabeth and great aunt Pam threw me a shower. It was so nice and it was evident how much Emma is already loved my so many people. I got great advice, and Emma scored some sweet gifts :) It filled my heart how much thought people put into her gifts. We are very lucky to have so many people to support and love us. It's really humbling and heart warming. I loved every minute of it, especially the later part when the girls all sat around and chatted. I can't wait for Emma to meet all of these wonderful people.
So, today is the first day of my last trimester. Jonathan and I went to Target today to repurchase some gifts that we got in Minnesota. Our cart was full and putting it all away made things seem so real. She now had diapers, clothes, bath stuff, and pretty much everything a baby needs. We also got some gifts while we were gone. Emma's great aunt Nancy sent her Boppy pillows and onesies and her great aunt Kitty and cousin Shelby sent her bouncy chair. I'm so glad people are willing to buy things for us. I don't know how we would do it alone.
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Bethie, there is nothing you are doing to make you think you're "failing" your pregnancy. Gestational diabetes is very common and a result of the the pregnancy and genetics, not anything you're doing wrong. It's a crap shoot, whether you develop it or not, and is completely manageable, especially for someone like you, who already knows the right things to eat and do.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're not feeling good, but that will pass. Just be good to yourself, starting with cutting yourself some slack. Okay?